bw-inc - "Industrious Factory"

Apparently Erika, the girl I got hired with, isn't doing too hot in the serving department. This concerns me, because the other girls are judging her performance and reporting it back to the managers. "She's not ready to be on the floor." I do not want this to happen to me, especially hearing it from Liana who I've grown to respect, a great deal. Her personality and style is perfection, she has a class and sophistication, as well as professionalism, that many of the 20 year old CT's can't match.

I'm scared of not doing well. With these tables, it's all in my hands. I need to get my spiel down. I need to get more confidence. I need to get my shit together. Which is why this entry won't be longer, I'm going to go study.

Robert oh now your ignoring me eh? 6:31pmDestiny I had to make soup and no i have not I don't like paying for movies only if a boy takes me

6:32pmRobert classy lady i miss you when i come visit 6:32pmDestiny Yeah one who hasn't seen a movie in a while lol 6:32pmRobert wanna go see a movie? 6:32pmDestiny You're visiting??!!! And of course! 6:32pmRobert in a month or two or less 6:32pmDestiny woohoo!!! 6:32pmRobert its gonna be a surprise well go out to dinner and laugh laugh 6:33pmDestiny well december 19th is my birthday 6:33pmRobert 6:33pmDestiny it could be a birthday surprise!!! 6:33pmRobert hmmmm i just might do that... gonna put it in my calender right now 6:34pmDestiny 6:34pmRobert so are you dating anyone? how are things with aaron? you guys still talk? 6:35pmDestiny well... it's more like... He knows how passionately I feel about him so he avoids me.. hahaha. I mean, like I asked him to avoid me if he wasn't going to be serious although he texted me on Friday randomly, he was drunk. I guess it's nice to be thought of. However he's just... a hot mess. 6:36pmRobert ahhh no matter your a fucking rockstar everyone knows it animals know it 6:36pmDestiny :DDDDD 6:36pmRobert people in chicago think your a hott mess they tell me "that girl is fucking hottt" girls and guys 6:37pmDestiny LOL! 6:37pmRobert i just laugh although its true. 6:37pmDestiny I had to tag you in that photo of liz and I We were all spicy and such for halloween

6:38pmRobert i loved it i didnt know what to say! 6:38pmDestiny hahahaha you were in the middle of us, like our little love child, buwhaha 6:39pmRobert i just wanna live in there!!! build a little kitchen and cook juevos and chorizo and read children stories to my stuffed animals next to a roaring fire 6:39pmDestiny Hahahahaha I love it 6:40pmRobert i gotta take another shot brb 6:42pmDestiny 6:43pmRobert were going to a bar. this guy wants to get me REALLY drunk for some reason I love you so much ill talk to you soon 6:43pmDestiny mmkay! have fun! be safe

6:46pmRobert not leaving just yet so i came back 6:46pmDestiny lol:D Are you guys walking?? 6:47pmRobert yeah i live in like pb but in chicago 6:47pmDestiny hahahaha awesome! that sounds sick. what did you take shots of?? i'm jealous. being sick and not drinking SUCKS. 6:48pmRobert 99 black cherries 6:48pmDestiny never heard of those...

By Chris Rock's "Good Hair", and Tyra's segment on it, "What is Good Hair?"

So in the black community, "good hair" is seriously a crazy issue.

Having not grown up around many black people, I wasn't exposed to relaxers early on, or even hot tools. However this didn't mean that I was not ridiculed. Having grown up in a predominantly white environment, my multi-cultural background gave way to white culture, which often has no idea what to think of me, and additionally, my seemingly eccentric hair.

As a child, my mother did the best she could, keeping my hair in braids and and ponytails. My hair has always been incredibly long for a "black girl", due primarily to my Filipina, Spanish, and Tlingit heritage. However recently... I've become addicted to hair extensions, due largely in part to seeing white people use them. Funny, huh? Cause most hair pieces I've ever heard of have been used by African Americans.

Now I refuse to call them weaves - those are traditionally sewn or glued into the hair. The types I use are clip in - no damage done to the hair, you just clip in the wefts and take them out at the end of the day. It dramatically changes my look, and for some funny reason, I feel more attractive and desirable with these hair pieces in. It's why I think I got the job at Hooters, actually.

This is old:

I feel like in order to be wanted, I must be straightened and styled to be accepted. Isn't that interesting? The one awful thing about hair extensions... or a woman's weave... are those times when you're trying to be intimate. Flashbacks to Aaron trying to run his fingers through my hair as I went down on him. Dodging bullets I was... you can only imagine.

Finally, after a year of bullshit at the lob, I get down to the nitty gritty at Hooters.